I heard something I don’t like

This happend a couple of weeks ago and all is well. I didn't have internet access, but had taken my laptop with me and this was how I felt then.

I don't really know what to do, I am at a retreat with the ladies from my church and a woman I know told me that my husband hit on my niece while she was living with us. Now this is hard for me to believe but there is that seed of doubt and unrest that sits in the pit of my stomach. But I don't know if I believe this woman. She told me that when her and my niece would walk in the mornings she would say things. You know things that would make her uncomfortable.

I do know that there was no love lost when it came to my husband and my neice. Neither one really cared for the other and it is hard for me to imagine him making a move on her, but none the less, I sit here at 12:19 am writing about it.

I think what bothers me most, is this lady and I were friendly a few years ago and then things kind of went south, if you know what I mean. Sometimes I feel like she likes to stir things up, and Craig feels the same way. UGH! Why now, why on this retreat? Why when I can't call him, because he has his phone off, and I can't call her, because I just got a new phone and I haven't put her number in my phone, or anyone else's for that matter.

OK, this is what I am going to do.

1. I will go to sleep
   
2. I will lift this up to Him that sustains me
   
3. I will talk to Craig tomorrow
   
4. And maybe even my niece.

School, Kids, Home...

Well I took my first practicle in Anatomy and Physiology, and I know I didn't do very well. It is somewhat frustrating to me, but what are you going to do? I haven't been able to devote as much time to it as I would like, with the kids soccar practice, my weekend away which was not the best.

So I will start fresh, and do better. I will just have to stop doing something. It's like I have 3 classes. They are all taking some time during the week and the house is an absolute mess! It kinda grosses me out, but I get tired of yelling at everyone to pick up their stuff. Boy Craig would laugh at that.

Speaking of Craig, he got a MOTORCYCLE! He has been dying to get on lately and he has been saving his money. He looked on ebay and found one. He contacted the guy and bid on it a couple of times but the reserve was never met. After the bid was over and it didn't sell, he called the guy to see if he would take what Craig was offering, and he did. I will post a picture of it here.

Sarah is doing better in school.

Soccer

Both girls are playing recreational soccer. This is the first time that they have played. So far they have had 2 practices and one game. The games are on Saturday's. Their first game was this past Saturday. Faith's game was at 9 am and she needed to be there 20 minutes early.

She seems to really enjoy it. She is on the team with her friend Franny and her dad is the coach. She played goalie, which I think she really enjoyed. Whenever she got the ball she would try to kick it. But she would throw it up in the air and kick and miss. She did this a couple of times, I know she was frustrated but it sure made me laugh. Faith did get injured in the game. She was hit with the ball in the stomach, but she was okay.

Sarah's game was at 12:45, she is not the fastest runner, but it seems like she enjoys herself and that's all that matters. Sarah also got injured in the game. Someone really kicked the ball and she got it in the face. I felt so bad for her! Sarah started to walk off of the field and everyone sat down. So she sat down, they came and got her, she was okay, but she didn't go near the ball after that. Poor thing!

Hopefully their second game will be a bit better!

My Friend

I have recently made a new friend, however it feels like I have known her all my life. She is sweet, funny, caring, fun, all the admirable qualities you want in a friend. But she has a problem. She suffers from Bipolar I. I have only known her for a few months, but she has a heart of gold. I can see that she is a good person, full of life and love.

This weekend she was admitted into the hospital. She had become, "psychotic" and violent. I can see it in a way, she seems to be a spitfire! But again, she has a heart of gold. There were signs, signs that I only see now. Comments she made. Thursday she called me. She was out of town and we had spoken briefly on Tuesday. When she called Thursday I was at work and couldn't talk. I asked if I could call her back on my lunch hour. She said yes, and I asked if she was okay. She said yes and I took her at her word. However, she reassured me that she was okay even though I hadn't asked again. I think she was trying to reach out.

I think she has been reaching out for a while. She would give me indicators as to what she would be like when she was in her mania. She will talk faster, I thought to myself, "Could that be possible?" What I didn't see was the way she was talking was faster then normal. Remember the I have only spent a few hours alone with her outside of practice. In this time she has been very open about herself and what she has been through. She was diagnosed with this a couple of years ago. I think it was shocking to her to find this out.

Apparently if you are Bipolar, it usually presents itself between the ages of 18-24. And if you have a parent who is Bipolar the likely hood of the child getting is passed to them is increased. Her mother also has this disorder.

I want to be there for her and her family. I want to help in anyway that I can. When she had to leave school because of her first episode (that what she calls them) a lot of her friends disappeared. I want to be someone she can count on, I want her to know that I love her and will support her in any way.

I can't beleive that it is almost August

This year is just flying by! Next week we are in August, September is my 14th Anniversary, then October is my birthday!!!! I don't think I will ever tire of celebrating my birthday.



I've been thinking about it and this is what I want for my birthday.

• A docking system for my Ipod for the kitchen. So I can listen to music without earphones.http://store.apple.com/1-800-MY-APPLE/WebObjects/AppleStore.woa/wa/RSLID?mco=352A7B4&nplm=TL045LL/A


• iTunes Gift card


• Second Season of Charmed


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It's Been a While

It's been a while since I have been on here. My trip to NC was very interesting!!! We got there and went to Dave's Aunt Winnie's house, she hadn't packed a thing! She lived in this home for over 20 years, so you can only imagine what you accumulate over that time period. We had to go and get a truck and boxes. We looked for a big enough truck for like two hours. Finally we got a 26 ft long U-Haul. We grabbed some KFC and ate lunch and started packing. We realized shortly after we started that we didn't have enough boxes. So Winnie and Dave's other Aunt (I don't remember her name) went to get more boxes and Dave and I continued to pack.



When they got back we had another epiphany. WE NEED MORE PEOPLE TO HELP PACK! The whole idea was for us to get the truck packed that night and get a couple of hours on the road. Winnie called some people from her church a man with four teenager came over to help us. I mean to tell you they worked hard and didn't stop until they had to leave. They were a God send!



Dave and I finally got on the road about 10 pm. We couldn't get the female part of the seat belt through the seat in the truck. I wanted my seat belt on. That truck was big and Dave was driving fast and that truck was loaded. (Remember, I was already in an accident involving a U-Haul trailer, a different story for another time). We pulled over after about 1 hr and got a hotel room, took a shower and went to sleep. We were exhausted.

Got up had a really nice breakfast and got back on the road headed for Dave's mom and dad's in upstate NY. Pulled in about 30 min away from his mom or dad on Sunday night about 10 pm. Got a room, got comfortable and watched a little of the movie, "The Sixth Sense", great movie by the way. We waited until the little boy said the line, "I see dead people." And turned off the TV and went to sleep.

Got up Monday morning, drove out to Dave's parents house. Met his dad, it's amazing that I have known Dave for 10 years, I have met his mom, a sister, cousins, and aunts, but never met his dad. Dave's dad told him to pull the truck up to the barn, the only bad thing about that is that the truck is so long that it sticks out in the road. He puts the truck in drive to move it and one of the back wheels just spins. Dave is freaking out, I am not quite sure as to why, I get out and start directing traffic.

I do truly believe that ignorance is bliss! What I didn't know is that this road is frequently travel this road at high rates of speed. This guy pulls overand asks if we are going to be sticking out of the road for long. I say well that depends, he's kind of stuck. He tells me I should call the State Police and the Fire Dept. I kindly tell him that if he knows the numbers I would gladly call them. He must volunteer or something, but he had them in his phone.

Mean while, I am still directing traffic, kinda thinking to myself, this kind of fun! Dave has now opened the back of the truck and is just throwing things from the back of the truck. Jumps back in the truck and pulls out!! YEAH, he pulls into one of the driveways at the house. After he is parked he tells me how worried I was and that he couldn't believe I was directing traffic. Sure I was! I didn't know those big truck come barreling down the road. See...it wouldn't have been so bad, but there was this little hill that they would come over and about 300 feet we were sticking out into the road.

Some of his nieces and nephews came to help us unload, thank God! We would fill the bed of this truck and then drive it up to where it was going to be stored. While they were gone, I would move more boxes from the back of the truck.

I left Saturday morning at 6 am, I got home Monday evening at 7 pm. It was a long, eventful trip with a great friend. I would do it all over again.

Got up had a really good breakfast, then got in the truck and started driving. We drove to Dave's parents house in upstate NY to drop off 90% of what we had in the truck.

Road Trip

Well, I am going to Charlotte, North Caroline this weekend with a friend of mine, Dave. He is going to help an elderly aunt of his move the rest of her belongings here to NJ. He didn't have anyone to drive with him, so I told him that I would go with to keep him company. Now I am kinda regretting saying that I would go.

I do believe that we will have a good time, but it means getting up at the crack of dawn on Saturday to catch a flight, a mad dash to pack up the truck and then a 12 hour drive back here.