Got my digital camera back

I was recently talking to my dad and he mentioned that my blog had gotten kind of boring without any new pictures. Somehow I have lost my charger for digital camera and I just assumed that it would turn up somewhere. In the past when I couldn't find my camera I COULD find my charger and vice versa.

So a week ago I went and ordered my camera from Radio Shack. $65 and a week later I am back in business. I got it yesterday just in time for Faith's "Lip Sync" performance at her school. I wasn't able to take any pictures of her routine, but I did manage to snap on with her and her girlfriend Francesca who she performed with. They lip synced and danced to Miley Cyrus's "Girls Night Out"

I straightened Faith's hair and put make up on her, can you tell? LOL She is growing up so fast. She has already asked me if I could do her make up for school. She must be crazy if she think she is wearing make up at 10 years old! The performance started at 7 pm and we didn't get out of there until 9:30 pm and they hadn't done the Finale when we left. I was starving as the rest of my clan was, but Faith was torn about going to grab a bite or staying for the Finale. She really wanted to do both, but Craig and I were tired and there is only so much screaming and loud music I can stand. (That made me sound old didn't it?)

Anyway since I have my digital back, I will be taking more pictures. Speaking of which here is one of me and my man.

Am I a Bad Mother If....

Faith has been complaining about her throat, and Craig took both girls to the doctor on the 19th. Sarah was diagnosed with a sinus infection and they tested Faith for strep, which came back negative. The perscribed antibiotics for Sarah but sent nothiing home with Faith since it was just the beginnings of a cold. Now over Christmas both Craig and I got sick. Thankfully the girls were off the week of Christmas so I got to stay home and recoup.

Yesterday I come home and Faith is complaining that her throat hurts as a single tear slides down her cheek. So I call the doctor and they tell me to come right over. I bring her in and they do another strep test, but it comes back negative again. They don't give her anything for it and send us on our merry way. She did have a slight fever of 100. So when we get home I give her some Motrin and some night time cold medicine.

This morning I have to get up at O'dark thirty because Sarah has a field trip to "the Moon" and she has to be at school at 6:30 am, did I mention that I have no heat in the car??? It was freakin cold, 15 degrees this morning. Anyway, I come home take Faith's tempreture and it's normal however she is still complaining of her throat hurting. I make her some tea and she refuses to drink it.

I called my boss lastnight just to give her a heads up about the possiblity of me not being there, needless to say she wasn't to happy. She apparently had an intestional virus the day before and she still came into work. I also tried calling a friend who I thought was off of work today but she never called me back. So I am sending Faith to school. Remember she has no fever, just a sore throat, does that make me a bad mother??

I hate feeling like I am choosing my job over my child and right now I kinda feel like that. It is the only day of the week that completely sucks if I take off. We are short handed as it is and they have already paid for the day. I told Faith if she doesn't feel well by 12, to go to the nurses office and call me.

I still feel like doo-doo.

I feel guilty

I came home from my last English class last night and saw Faith's interim report card is on the frig. She isn't doing all that great, and I am frustrated. I feel like I am not helping her enough but at the same time I feel like she should be taking more responsibility for her school work. I talked with her this morning and she of course started to cry, but I think she was crying because she feels like she has let me down. I know that at her age, I would do that.

She brings her books home, but she doesn't study. I mean why bother???? She does the homework that is assigned for that night, but she won't study beyond that. In her case she has to study some subject every night. She will bring her books home .....

I had to go to school myself, on the way I called Craig. He told me that he had already lit into her last night. Told her that if she failed, she would have to go to summer school and that takes up about 2/3 of the summer. Now I know why she was so upset.

I told her that I would give her $5 for every letter grade she brought her grade up. Dave came over for dinner tonight and told her that he would match what ever I gave her. I hope she does it. Generally I don't bribe my children (that's what it feels like) but if it works she will see that she can do it. That's all I care about.

Why is Raising Kids So Hard?

Today I had class and Craig was off from work so he was home with the girls. I came home early since one of my classes was canceled. Some of their friends came over to play, after they went home our neighbor came over and Craig asked if Faith and her daughter had asked her if it was alright for Julia (friend) had asked if they could go around the block to the lake. Well to make a long story short, they had not, but said they had and that the mother had said yes. Now this is not the first time that Faith has lied and no matter what we do, she continues to do it. She was crying like crazy and I went in their to talk to her. She had sent Sarah out with picture that she had drew for Craig. She knew she was in trouble!

I have to say, she takes after me in that respect. Now don't get me wrong, I'm NOT a pathological liar. I lie sometimes just to avoid confrontation, i.e. how much money I spent etc. I know its stupid, and I am consciously working on trying not to do that, just to face the music as it comes and if it pisses Craig off, oh well.

I have tried to tell her that if she is honest with us, that she will get in less trouble then if she lies. I just wish that she would realize that she can come to us with anything! I hope she knows that. UGHHH, why isn't there a manual?

I have asked all my friends who have good kids, kids who are responsible, kind, and who like to talk to their parents what the secret is, for some reason they refuse to give it to me. Like it the recipe for Bush's Baked Beans. LOL I think that my girls will come out alright. I just hate to see them in trouble, with tears in their eyes.